曝钟铉8年资深粉悲伤自杀 曾任后援站站长

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据台湾媒体报道 韩国男团SHINee成员钟铉18日自杀身亡,得年27岁,在遗书中表达努力和忧郁症对抗,最后却反遭吞噬的心声,“我问了好几百遍‘为什么一定要活着?’即

据台湾媒体报道 韩国男团SHINee成员钟铉18日自杀身亡,得年27岁,在遗书中表达努力和忧郁症对抗,最后却反遭吞噬的心声,“我问了好几百遍‘为什么一定要活着?’即使笑不出来,也请不要带着怪罪送我走。”让粉丝崩溃心痛,如今传出有一名喜欢他8年的后援网站站长,也因为太过悲伤,自杀过世。

钟铉在18日惊传烧炭自杀,经纪公司在台湾时间晚上11时许证实过世,让各国粉丝陷入悲痛中,如今传出有他的死忠韩粉自杀,有粉丝19日凌晨在IG上PO出蜡烛照,透露一名追随他8年的粉丝过世,“她将永远和钟铉一起笑着,不会再有痛苦了。”据悉,这名粉丝是钟铉的后援会站长,在粉丝圈相当有名且资深。

消息传出后,引起各界震惊,许多粉丝不敢置信,错愕惊呼:“他用尽力气拖着你走了那么久,你怎舍得就这样离去?”但也有人认为自杀会引起负面效应,直言:“剩下的所有爱他的人,请好好活着。”“希望粉丝都能好好的勇敢一次,为了他也好,为了自己也好。”

钟铉在生前曾将自己的遗书给Nine,当时他告诉对方,“如果有一天我从这世界上消失了,请一定要亲自上传这段文字。”Nine从收到的那天起就一直盼望着这天不会到来,可惜的是没能阻止憾事发生,“和家人商量过后,我们决定遵照他的遗言公开遗书。”

遗书中,钟铉写道自己在努力过后,还是被忧郁吞噬,“为什么?我为什么不能照自己的想法做个了断呢?我告诉自己去寻找苦痛的原因,可我其实比谁都了解,会痛都是因为我自己,全部都是我的错,都是我太没用了。”更对医生的治疗感到不满,“我问了好几百遍‘为什么一定要活着?’那些答案都不是真正为了我,而是为了你,我好想也为了自己活着。”

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